Grisha died today. Lying quietly in his favorite place where he went for the last time, and after I talked to him and told him to rest, he passed away. At least he was in a place he considered his home. On the one hand, I'm glad his suffering is over since I couldn't help him anymore. That he no longer feels any pain or discomfort if he felt one. On the other hand, I sincerely loved him and still love him, and I grieve for him as for a friend as he was a one for me, and I would like him to stay here if it was possible. But he's gone, and I'm not sure I want to keep any fish anymore. Like, I need to move on, but I don't know if I want to. I have a larger tank on it's way which I ordered before Grisha got sick, and I don't know whether to return this one or not. I have an idea of buying bettas from a pet store and giving them a proper home as much as I can since for now I have resources and knowledge for that, but I'm not sure if I'll love any of them as much as Grisha. I sure will take care of them, but… I basically got into all of this only because of Grisha. I don't know if I will regret my choice later. Maybe someone can advise me on what to do? Maybe it's just an emotions and I didn't need to rush with any decisions? I really hope that at least he was happy before his illness and death… And that he knew that I was here for him. Rest in peace, my friend. Please forgive me that I didn't save you. I really tried.
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Posted by VickyZot
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aw, im so sorry for your loss
i remember my family had a cat when i was young, and when she passed away i was heartbroken.
my betta fish who ive now had for 3 days is the first pet ive had since then, and im constantly scared that im doing something wrong or that he is sick and i can’t tell.
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my betta recently, I was confused bc I never thought I’d feel so sad for a fish, but I was crying. A really good piece of advice I got was “you have love to give.” Bc I also wasn’t sure if I wanted I new one. I reccomend going to the pet store and walking past the bettas and seeing if you just connect to any. I ended up buying the cutest little guy, he follows my finger around and comes up to me when I walk by. I don’t think u should force yourself to buy a new one or entirely close yourself off, but just see if you connect to any bc you never know who you might end up giving a loving home. I don’t know if this will help but I send you prayers and love
I’m gonna be honest, it won’t be easy. You bonded with Grisha, and that’s beautiful. It will take some time for you to grieve. Please don’t rush it, get a beta when you’re ready. Theres no rules here.
If you don’t feel like keeping fishes, we understand the emotional weight, it’s understandable. It’s not your job to rescue any fishes, don’t take it upon yourself to help everyone, if you’re not ready.
instead of fish, you should get shrimp, don’t give up. this is your hobby for a reason… you have a much longer life span than any nano fish, it’s okay to grieve, it’s not okay to throw away the empire that you raised.
In their honor, steal the cups of bettas at petco/petsmart and save her friends from those sad cups
If you go to Petco or Petsmart and find a dying betta, they will often adopt it out to you for free if you ask. I got two that way and was able to nurse them both back to health 🙂