Betta Fish: My Sweet Boy

It’s been 2 months since my Tanjiro developed swim bladder, and despite all the treatments I tried he ended up passing today after developing severe pineconing and dropsy last night. I had a beautiful final moment with him and I just wanted to share with group how much I love him. He was my first fish that got me into the hobby a little over 2 years ago and we grew so much together.
Today when I saw how much he had declined, I knew it was only a matter of hours before he’d be gone and I’ve been sobbing all day knowing I need to put him down soon. Please don’t judge, but I decided to take him on one final trip to the park before euthanizing him to enjoy the fresh air and sunlight because when I first got him 2 years ago, my town had a bad hurricane and I had to travel with him and then I ended up moving soon after and had to travel again and I’d have him perched up in a small travel tank to enjoy the drive with me. During those trips, he loved to look all around and see the world. So I put him in his travel tank this morning, went out to the park, and he began swimming around to look at the sky and look at me despite his condition. I told him how much I love him and how good he’s been to me. I just know people thought I was crazy talking to a fish🤣 but that’s my baby. When we came home, he completely sank down the second I entered my room and I knew he was gone.
With him, I really felt like a mom. And I’m so thankful for him, because to me he wasn’t just a fish, he was my bestfriend and my baby. Sometimes I think I’m crazy for treating a fish like a little person, but I truly think he understood me and knows how much I love him.